No the latest, but I like it.

1:10 PM 6/15/2006

should've listened to what they said,
now here i am, alone again,
slowly fading, mentally dead,
no personality left to defend.

with actions i was forced to take,
seems though it never meant anything,
torn and shatter, laying in the wake,
too much shit, so frusterating.

the gears that grind, to make me feel,
have suddenly stopped turning,
born consequences, this isnt real,
the fire inside has quit burning.

so no effort left,
nothign to do,
whos fault is this?
havent got a clue.

shouldve known better,
shouldnt be wrong,
now theres no time left,
so i write this song.
emotions have stopped,
the bloods dried up,
propositioned this way,
mind wont shut up.
so as the final result,
i break down,
regret all of this,
broken on the ground.

mind begins to slip,
like the rest of it all,
no urges to quit,
for im left to crawl.

cant hope for an uprise,
youve got nothign to give,
donttake this as a surprise,
i dont deserve to live.

wont take the break,
wont let it get me,
my one big mistake,
is my fake identity.

not who you say you are,
its all just a lie,
dont just pretend you care,
dont live and deny.

can't make the decision to stay or leave,
what exactly is given? ill just sit here and bleed,
goodbye to the feelings, for which youve taken away,
goodbye to the dealings, of how the game is played.

so now theres effort left,
i dont have anything to do,
but whos fault is this?
well i havent got a clue.

so i shouldve known better,
shouldnt be wrong,
now theres no time left,
so i write this song.
emotions have stopped,
the bloods dried up,
propositioned this way,
mind wont shut up.
so as the final result,
i break down patheticly,
regret all of this,
broken unregretably.

no actions left to take right now,
theres no time to rest, but how,
is this suppose to be played out?

we're stuck in this world,
here goes nothign to my life,
ill make a difference,
so you dont have to turn off the light.

so now maybe theres effort,
maybe i have somehting to do,
whocares whos fault it is,
for once ive got a clue

so i couldnt have known better,
and so i was wrong,
but there is some time left,
since i wrote this song.
emotions begin to resurface,
the blood is coming back again,
now given a choice face to face,
the mind tries to bring me down.
so as the final result,
i finally get up again,
remember all this,
for it isnt the end